urgh!! i'm sick with all of you!!!

what the hell u want from me???
i don't love u , u know!!!
just leave me alone will u???
just please!!!
i've had enough with all of u!!!
i never think about my heart all this time!!!
i don't care how much my heart is bleed as long as all people around me is happy
but not this time!!!
this time my priority is my heart!!!
i don't care!!!
just please...
leave me alone...
i just want to be happy with my family n my huNy...
don't you destroy that...
if u do...
u'll be regret ur whole life...
i promise...
i'm not guilty...
but u are...
ur forcing people...
go to hell with everything...
i'll only be loyal to a guy name SYAFIQ MUZANI....
not you!!!
understand???!!!
i hate you so really really much...

like jaja said ~ away ~

will off9 for ym , fs , twitter n fb...
having a family trip to Brunei...
huhu!!
hope it'll be a fun journey...
hee!!
anyway...
gonna miss all of u in labuan...
especially
Syafiq...
> i'll be lonely my dear... i love you so much n take care...
Jaja
> hye jaa!! goin to miss u!! with all ur joke n such that stuff!!
Taichi
> u just sit on my bed ok??? i can't bring u to Brunei...

Love all of you!!!
i am really bz rite now...
so just don't forget me ok???
bye bye...............

what a stressful day........

stress stress stress STRESS!!!
huhu!!!
tem tgh bake cake ni...
dua2 mixer cake ni rosak...
tp alhamdulilah aq dpt b'sbr n xmyumpah2...
really good of u mariam hanani...
haha!!!
wlupun mlut xda nyumpah2 tp hati pnya main panas...
huhu!!!
fkir pnya fkir cmana nak truskan mixing cake ni...
skalinya ada satu idea dtg...
aq dial la no ni...
alhamdulilah ada org angkat...
then ada la satu suara lembut ni...
dia ckp 'hye darling'
mula2 aq blur...
bila dgr btul2 suara tu...
aq ktawa...
haha!!
nak tau sapa???
nek bah aq laa....
cair aq dgr suara pnyayang n lmbut nek bah aq ni...
haha!!
nasib gak ada nek bah aq kasi cool down temperature aq td...
klu x... mmg dah lama aq ngamuk sbb stress...
hrp2 jd la kek ni...
klu xjd...
nangis seribu taun aq...
jaja smpat lg 'buzz'...
hehe!!!
adala gtau dia pasal secret kami...
tem tgh chat dgn dia ni...
bole2 plak aq nangis...
gugur gak air mata stress , sdih n bengang aq...
haha!!!
thanks jaja!!!
cuz of u i don't have to hide my feelings....
tq so much!!!
IL YOU!!!

aq xmampu puaskan hati suma org.....

first of all...
aq xtkejut sngt bila dpt tau kw bnci aq...
sbb org mcm aq ni mmg xlayak b'kwn dgn kw...
kan?? hee!!
secondly...
jan buat dosa dgn talk back kat blakang2 aq ok??
i prefer u just be honest with me...
ok???
drpd ko pndam prasaan kw tu...
huhu!!
xrela!!!
argh!!!
jan la tmbh masalah hdup aq yg mmg dah b'masalah...
jan la kusutkan kpala hotak aq yg dah sedia kusut ni...
fhm???
aq mls la nak gduh dgn kw ni...
btul...
get the word??
M-A-L-A-S
n i'm aslo tired of u...
pasni apa kw nak buat kw buat la k???
just don't u ever ever talk at my back anymore...
but if u insist of doing that...
i rather u just kill me...
aq xmampu nak puaskan hati suma org...
aq ada bnyk klmahan...
n i'm not perfect either...
so just accept me as i am...
cuz this is me...
klu bnci sngt kat aq...
bnuh je la aq ni k???

songs!!!

i'll dance with you if the song is
coward ~ ss501
and
flightless bird , American mouth ~ Iron & Wine
i'll sing with you if the song is
the one ~ ss501 ,
touch my hand ~ david archuleta
and
zero gravity ~ david archuleta
i'll remember you if the song is
crush ~ david archuleta
&
U R man ~ ss501
the 1st song i sang to you
happy birthday song
from me to you
who i am ~ nick jonas
the 1st song i hear u sang
fire burning ~ sean kingston
our love theme song
benar benar ~ adam
kehadiranmu ~ vagetoz
i'll play the piano and the song is
first love ~ utada hikaru
i'll play the guitar and the song is
avalench ~ marie digby

stop hurting me!!! will u??

pa kan kw ni???
ada sja kw mau cr pasal ama aq...
ada sja kw xpuas hati dgn aq...
apa kan masalah kw ama aq ni kan???
klu ada ckp wa...
edei...
ni kw mrh2 aq dpan org len...
apa kw ingat aq ni xda prasaan???
aq tau malu jua wa...
aq ada maruah wa jua...
jan kw jtuhkan maruah aq cmtu saja...
tlg laa!!!
haih!!
i'm speechless!!!
and stop complaining!!!
even i'm a girl , i never complain about that work!!!
so shut it!!!
just bring that damn thing straight to house!!!
padan mua ketulahan...
dua kali kw kna ari ni...
kw sdar ka perangai kw ni buat aq makin bnci llaki!!!
sdar la kw ba!!!
pnat aq nasihat kw ni...
ish..........
kw ada beberapa bulan lg tau hdup sebumbung dgn aq...
nanti bila masing2 bawa haluan jan la kw nyesal tem tu...
i've tried my best not to fight with u...
tp kw yg mulakan dlu kan???
puaskan la hati kw k???
bila kw puas sda gtau aq...
tgk la klu masi ada ruang utk aq maafkan kw...
brbahagia la kw IN YOUR PERFECT LIFE...

how should i say this to you??

this post is actually for u...
sory cuz tiba2 tpksa stop texting dgn kw...
hp cel ku nda dpt hntr msej...
tiap kali hntr 'message sending failed'
sbr ja la aq...
mm... cmana aq mau ckp dgn kw??
kw mau aq jjur atau nda??
first of all..
really sorry klu kw nda dpt trima apa aq ckp ni...
i have to be honest with u...
sapa lg mau tgur kw klu bkn kwn kw sndr...
kan??
frankly speak my dear...
i am really clearly disappointed with u...
mungkin hati aq lg luka dr ia...
cuz i knew u for about 4 years my dear...
aq knal kw...
tp aq xpnah jangka ini tindakan kw...
i am really really shocked...
if i were u...
aq bg ia peluang...
suru ia buktikan cinta ia utk kw...
klu kw puas hati dgn confession ia, try la pupuk cinta tu dlm diri kw...
kw suru ia brubah jd lbih bek...
taun dpan spm...
kw kna fkir jga apa akan jd dgn ia...
klu ia t'bwa2 smpi studynya t'ganggu...
hmm... Insya Allah nda...
aq sda ckp kan ari tu...
bg ia peluang...
just for one more time...
everybody deserve a second chance...
not just him... u too...
kw bg la diri kw peluang utk ia...
letak ia dlm hati kw...
ubah feeling tu...
jan biar prinsip tu pgaruh kw buat kptusan ni...
i don't think this is what u want...
rite??
aq cma mampu doakan kptusan kw buat xslh n ko bhgia...
take ur time to think about this...
aq bkn mau buat kw makin stress...
no!!
aq cma tgur apa yg aq rasa perlu dtgur...
i2 la namanya kwn kan???
apa2 pun kptusan kw , i'll always be ur BFF...
keep that in ur mind!!!
n i want u to hear this song...
kw try hayati lgu ni... kw ltak tmpt kw dlm kadaan ia...
bygkan ia nyanyi lgu 2 smbil meraung2 menangis2 arah kw...
( na... smpi cmtu skali aq minta... ish2...)
fhmi btul2 mksd lgu tu...
Nick Jonas & The Administration ~ Who I Am...
lgu blog aq skang pun i2...
ok...
made up ur mind...
apa2 pun kptusan kw...
aq try trima dgn hati yg tebuka...
Insya Allah...
ok...
have a nice day...

to do lists....

sunday mornin!!
wake up really early!!
my to list for today is

> maths , maths , maths
huhu!! madam mahani's maths homework not yet finished.. about 20% more laa...
nurul even call it 'maths novel'... chaiyo2 for that for all 4J 2009!!

> let'z drive!!
nek bah teach me how to drive, dunno laa... so scared if i crashed into the tree.. we'll see about that...

> wash cars!!!
get dirty in mud n car wash soap... can't wait to play with water!!!

> asks nek nanan n nek nina about top up...

> open lelong website n buy a pepper spray...

> study up bio , chem , phys n do 2 questions from the +m3 book...

> text and asks 'him' about anything...

> text ustaz wan and asks about the class pass...

> ask all the question to jaja...
(hbs la kw jaa.... ba.... nda la ku tau tu... hohoho)

> zero gravity ~ david archuleta vids search !!!

all about LOVE...

don't find LOVE,
let LOVE find you.
That's why it is called falling in LOVE,
because...
you don't force yourself to fall,
you just fall...

people will do lots of crazy things for
LOVE
but it will only be crazy if you think it is...

LOVE is as much of an object as an obsession,
everybody wants it,
everybody seeks it,
but few ever achieve it,
those who do will cherish it,
be lost in it,
and among all,
never...
never forget it.

Pleasure of LOVE lasts but a moment, Pain of LOVE lasts a lifetime.

LOVE is never wanting to lose faith,
never wanting to give up,
and never truly moving on.
LOVE is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's
left of your heart that they feel the same.

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me
because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.

Two souls with but a single thought,
Two hearts that beat as one.
( most of all i like this one cuz it's remind me to the song
TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE )

LOVE is a promise,
LOVE is a souvenir,
once given never forgotten,
never let it disappear.

If I know what LOVE is, it is because of you.

LOVE is like a war:Easy to begin Hard to end!


If you LOVE me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS DEEP AND TRUE

NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO

I’LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU

NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO

I’LL ALWAYS BE THERE BESIDE YOU

TILL THE DAY I DIE

MY LOVE ALWAYS STAY TRUE FOR YOU

i love you mum!!!

happy shopping time!!!

this post is specially create for my beloved mother, Puan Salbiah Sumon........
mummy!!!
i am really really really sorry if i made mistakes this whole time..........
forgive me please.........
i know you are having such bad and hard time this few days...
but we'll find the way to makes thing better.... ok mum??
i promise you that i will always be there for you if you ever need me....
THANK YOU MUMMY
for being such a great and responsible mum after all this time....
thank you for taking care of me....
You did such great job!!!
keep up the good work mum!!!
i will support you in everything you do....
and i just want to say that
I LOVE YOU REALLY REALLY MUCH!!!!
be strong dear mummy!!
p/s > You're the greatest mum in whole universe!!!!

cute!!! my type!!

cute!!! real cute!!!
wish to have one of this...
but my mum would not let me..
hm...
sabar ja la...............................
hehe!!!

funny!!!

a video that really makes me laugh like hell.........
even me guling2 d lantai lagi after seeing this vid.....
hehe!!!
so budu!!!!
but i like it!!!
dgn sound effect reaper tu lagi....
mmg smart , lucu , make me laugh and the funniest vids ever!!!
thank u for making me laugh reaper!!!

sorry . no can do!!

morning!!!
wake up early at 4am in the morning!!
hee!!
i dunno why my sleep schedule 'tunggang langgang'...
i hate it u know???
huh!!!
my mum says i better have a balance sleep schedule before school begins....
yeah mummy....
i'll do that....

now...

let's hear what my heart had been thinking for

the winner of the

MAN THAT
MARIAM HANANI BINTI ISMAIL
HATE MOST IN THE WHOLE WORLD
award

hey you!!!
u got problem with me?!!
i hate u , u know that???
i hate saying this straight to the point to you cuz next year we'll be in our separate ways!!!
next year u'll be moving to kk....
n i am going to spend my precious time study like hell in my purple room for spm!!!
u got that?!!
so , for like 5 months from now ( i think less )
i'll be pretending that u have a family relationship with me....

it's u who started this game first , not me.... so....
GAME OVER

for you ***ch!!!
and if u want any of my help after this my answer is always and forever like this

SORRY . NO CAN DO...................

fuh....puas hati.......

late nite movie with bro...

it's another 'no sleep...'
my bro asks me to company him watching Harry Potter : And The Goblet Of Fire...
( cried cuz so sad watching Cedric Diggory being killed by Voldemort, so angry with that SOB!!!)
well, i hate turning my brother down cuz i think it's the last year i'll spending my late nite with him...
next year he'll be studying at kk....
huu!!
sad!!
nobody is going to pick fight with me again....
emotional me!!!

jaja asks me to go KL with her cuz she need company for the Pra SPM course...
well, i don't have that high hope to go with her cuz i am confidently sure 99.99% that my mum and dad wouldn't let me go...
really sorry jaaa!!! wish i could, but....
u know how my mum and dad will act rite....
sorrrrrryyyy for dissapointing U jaja!!!
hm....
ok..
gotta sleep cuz not feeling good...
hehe!!
mownink!!!
daa~